Chapter 14
Nikolay:
I read through Anastasia’s messages and listened to her voice notes, my heart breaking with each message that she sent.
It turns out, mom had threatened her to not approach me. Forcing her to breakup with me, otherwise, she would be sure to ruin her.
Katerina, who somehow slept after I kissed her. The woman chose to ignore what I told her, pulling away, and pushing me back, not wanting me to touch her as she lay her head on the armrest.
My chest ached, and looking at her angelic features, I couldn’t help but wonder what made her as special as she was for the family to choose her over my love.
I got up from the couch to get myself a glass of water, and looking at Katerina whose chest rose and fell with each breath that she took, I couldn’t help but sigh. My heart felt like it was being ripped into a a thousand pieces, and the thing was, I didn’t know how to mend it. A part of me wanted to fulfill my promise toward the love of my life. I wanted to build myself and my family with her, but another part knew that with the amount of media following us, mom, and of course, her spies, that would be almost impossible.
“What are you going to do, Nikolay?” I asked myself, shaking my head as I looked down at my phone. This was the fifth message that she sent me in the past three hours, all of them were of her begging me to at least answer her. The thing was, I couldn’t. I knew that her heart was broken, and therefore, I couldn’t find myself answering her messages or calls.
-Please, Nikolay, one message to let me know to fight back and I will. I am sorry for breaking up with you, but please don’t do this, my love.
A tear fell from my left eye as I locked the phone. And walking toward Katerina, I felt like I was losing ga bit of my soul with each breath that I took. I leaned in and lifted her in my arms, and walking toward MY bedroom, I put her on bed, careful not to wake her up before I got in bed beside her. I looked at her, slowly running my finger over her jawline, careful not to wake her up.
I was now stuck between stone and fire, and I knew that the fires would end up eating me alive if I allowed them to. But at this point, there was no way for me to back out. The arrows have been struck, and if I wanted to fight back then, I should have. I made the choices that I wanted, and it was mostly because I knew that Anastasia wouldn’t look at me if I didn’t have anything.
If I made a choice to marry Katerina, it was because deep down, I knew that Anastasia would see me as nothing without the money, presents, and places that I offered. The woman truly did love me, I couldn’t deny that. The two of us have been through our ups and downs, and we both, somehow, managed to prove our love to one another, but when it came to the reality of things, I knew that Anastasia wasn’t the woman that I would be able to spend my life with. There was no guarantee whether or not she would leave me if she saw that I wouldn’t be able to offer her what I was giving her now.
I slowly raised Katerina’s body, removing the cover from under her as to place it over her body, not wanting her to get sick. And getting under the blanket, I felt like my soul was being ripped out of
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my body as I shared a bed beside another woman who wasn’t my own. My woman, the love of my life, and my queen, was somewhere breaking for me, while I, I was here, laying beside another woman simply because he was classified as my ‘wife.
I sighed and shook my head at myself, and turning around, I gave Katerina my back as I lay on my pillow, forcing myself to close my eyes.
“For both your safeties, Nikolay, you have to do this.” I whispered to myself. “With the path that you’re taking, you will only end up hurting Anastasia…”
I woke up to Katerina gasping in surprise as she pushed my chest.
1 was laying on my back while she lay on my chest, well, that was how she originally woke up. Right now, the woman was startled as she tried processing the fact that she was in my room, let alone my
“How?” She asked, frowning in confusion.
“You slept on the couch, and I saw it fit to take you to my room, you know, as my wife, instead of letting you sleep on the couch.” I said, answering her question.
“And you didn’t see it fit to wake me up? Nikolay, for fucks sake, one minute you are telling me that you’re in love with another woman. How happy the two of you are, then the next you are kissing me, now this, what the fuck are you going on about?” She asked, snapping at me.
I shook my head at her, taking a deep breath as I tried to calm myself down. Now was not the time. to argue
argue with her, and judging by the number of things that I had in mind, the last thing that I needed right now was to get a fuss about this.
“I told you, the two of us broke up. Anastasia chose to dump me yesterday.”
“And I told you, explain what the fuck the two of us are doing together and maybe she would actually understand. You keeping things vague will not take you two anywhere.”
“The two of us are over whether or not I choose to explain this to her. Therefore, I suggest that. you enjoy that I am trying to be your fucking husband. Any other man would have been over the place for the things that are being made because of you.” I snapped, making her frown.
“Because of me?”
“The love of my life is forced to break up with me for your sake. If not, she will be suffering the consequences. Therefore, 1 suggest that you fucking tone it down before I force you to.” I snapped. Katerina didn’t bother responding as she got up from the bed. She opened the door and slammed it shut, taking me by surprise as I sat up, pinching the bridge of my nose.
“Some morning call. Nikolay..”
