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I stayed quiet as I looked at Anastasia whose eyes were wide in surprise.
I could tell that her heart raced, her expression gave her out more than she even thought. Plus, I was her lover for years now, I knew how she would be when she was nervous. And she shook her head, not wanting to believe that had followed them.
My heart raced against my chest and I shook my head at the woman who I called my love. The woman who I trusted with everything that I had, and the woman who I had to fight the world for.
“Why?” Was all I could ask or even blurt out. The thing was, at this point, I didn’t even know what else I could say. The amount of betrayal that I felt was one that I couldn’t describe, and I knew that Anastasia could see it in
my eyes.
“Nikolay, please listen to me.” She said, avoiding my eyes, and I shook my head.
“You wanted to ruin my marriage, ruin a woman who is innocent of your doings. You wanted to break her soul, and you even fought for it, and now you are asking me to simply listen?” I asked, and she shook her head as tears fell from her eyes.
“I didn’t want to lose you to her, okay? The last thing that I wanted in my life was to live without you. The two of us have gone through so much, I have lost so much, if not everything and everyone to be with you. I didn’t want to end up losing you.” She said and I laughed, shaking my head at her. “Nik, please give me a chance to prove it. I didn’t…”
“You cheated on me when I gave you my word that I wouldn’t even lay a finger on the woman. You fucking slept with your ex. The man and I fist fought for your sake for him to sign your divorce papers and it took everything that my mom could do for him not to file a lawsuit, and you still went and fucked him?” I asked, shaking my head at the woman whose
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tears fell from her eyes as she looked at me. “What the fuck did I do to you? The woman and I are legally married and I chose you over her. The two of us have fought and built our marriage on fights and anger for YOU and you come today, lie to me about carrying my child, and even bribe a nurse to lie, costing her job and career. What the fuck did we deserve to know a woman like you? What was the crime or committed sin…?”
“Nikolay, I didn’t lose everyone to be with you only to see you with some cheap woman because the two of you had an arranged marriage. Their family are nothing, and them being bankrupt only meant that she married you for your money. She doesn’t show it, but I know for fact that she doesn’t have enough to support herself without your allowance.” She said, and I chuckled, shaking my head at the woman who has used more than just my money for her pleasure. The gifts and trips that she got were not. given to a wife who was a newly bride. The three houses that I bought simply because she wanted our privacy. The hotels that were rented for her sake, and here she was, claiming that Katerina was the one wanting anything.
The woman hasn’t asked for a piece of jewelry as a present, and she was my wife who I broke, and here was the gold digger, sitting in front of me after draining me of almost everything for a long while, leaving me when she believed that I had nothing only to come back when she got presents or something to ‘prove‘ that I could afford spoiling her. What kind of comparison was she making right now?
“Anastasia, you are going to get out of my life just as you have entered it. With nothing of what I could offer. The gifts that I bought you are yours, but the two of us know that you are not allowed to sell them in the real market, and even if you tried selling them in the black market, they would be traced back to me, and YOU could be put in jail for stealing them. Therefore, use them carefully and be sure to enjoy them, as they are the LAST you would get from me.” I said, crossing my arms over my chest as I looked at her, ignoring the pain that I felt in my chest at the waste that I was now feeling.
I didn’t know whether it was the waste of efforts, life, or time that I
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regretted now. Maybe it was all of it, but the two of us needed to part way now. But the baby was not mine, and I was not going to be taking the responsibility of killing an innocent soul that wasn’t mine. I wasn’t as cold hearted, and even if the baby was mine, killing the child would have never been my idea it wouldn’t have sat right in my soul. But now, even mom didn’t have the right to kill the child, especially not without her consent, and not with the proof of us knowing that the baby didn’t belong to the family.
“As for your unborn baby.” I said, looking at her, knowing that she was too shocked to answers. She put her hand on her stomach as she looked at me, her tears falling freely from her eyes, breaking my heart. The last thing. that I ever wanted in my life was to spare a tear from her. It was something that I promised to never be the cause of, and was something that I fought my life for her not to deal with. But this time, the two of us knew that her tears of pain were not my fault. She broke me, my family, and marriage, and now, I had my home to build. It was something that I was not going to let anyone wreck from now on. Not after the pain that MY wife went. through.
“Nikolay, please don’t do this.”
“The baby is not mine to harm. I wouldn’t have liked harming the child if it was mine either, but giving birth to a child that is not legitimate would have only caused future conflict. Now, as for this baby, I will not take any responsibility of harming or taking care of, you are free and on your own to deal as you may.” I said, walking toward the door where my mom was waiting with a small smile on her lips. I hated to admit it, but she did save me from making a huge mistake, and that was going to be one that I would never know how to mend. “I will be heading to my wife’s side if anyone needs anything from me.”
Mom didn’t answer as I walked out, and entering my car, I couldn’t help the sob of pain that escaped my lips as I felt like my heart was pulled out of my chest. This was the pain that I had to pay for what I did. The sin that I was paying for, but fucking hell did it hurt. And I couldn’t help but think of Katerina as I found myself getting lost in my thoughts as my pain
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“If this is how I made you feel, Katerina. Then I am so fucking sorry…”
